Tuesday, December 27, 2011
11:31 PM
im baaaaack!
after i looked at rin's blog, suddenly i felt th urge to blog mine hahaha. well, it's been a year now since i last updated my blog. gaaah after reading all those older posts in my blog, i felt as though i was super noob back then with crisis and all between each other hahaha.
im stucked. im confused. i dont even know my feelings anymore, how i felt and stuff. i dont know if i should wait or move on or wtv. whenever i tried my best to move and convinced myself that im over you, you would always be there. everywhere. like; you texted, you were infront of me, giving me that crooked smile that couldnt stop me from having high hopes for you. I could still remember the date 14th February 2010. That day when you asked me out and asked if you could be my boyfriend. it was really awkward for the first 'date' but i could remember when you were talking about some npcc stuffs, those brown eyes i couldnt forget th most. It seems hard for me whenever every valentines day came. i would always wished if those days could be rewinded, so we could start afresh. Those moments when we could talk the whole day like there's no tomorrow, texting day and night. But now all i could do is to pretend and put that smile on my face everyday. Im not obsessed, i just missed the way we were. Its good thing that at least we're friends now, we could contact if there's a need to (:
Getting over you is what i could do. well, i hope. And now, im not sure why i started accepting guys, contacting them to know them well (dont worry im not that obsessed, they're just friends), if its because im ready to move on. or. trying my best to forget about you.
But yeah. Now there's no option for me and im left here to watch both of you standing happy together. All the best (':
okay i might sound so dramatic and emtional haha wtv it is. at least i could let out my feelings for once. hahaha im done bitches (eventhough i know theres no one reading this lol).
