Sunday, January 26, 2014
Never a spark in between 1:56 PM
I don't know what I should do right now. I don't know if I'm at fault or the other way round. I don't know why im running away, avoiding you at any way I could when I shouldn't. I don't know why were all the excuses I've given seemed to be a relief to me. And I don't even know what's the reason I'm keeping this on.
Maybe its me cause my feelings have faded for you or maybe it's you for not putting much effort into this. I've never felt those kinds of special sparks whenever I'm with you. We wouldn't even go out together on our special day every single month. I don't know why I'm bragging about this when I shouldn't, but I guess it's the only way I could express myself.
And you know what, I've never felt taken eversince.
Sunday, January 8, 2012
3:55 PM
"Sometimes you think you've gotten over a person, but when you see him smile,
you suddenly realise you're just pretending you're over him
to ease the pain of knowing he will never be yours."
That's what im going through.
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
11:31 PM
im baaaaack!
after i looked at rin's blog, suddenly i felt th urge to blog mine hahaha. well, it's been a year now since i last updated my blog. gaaah after reading all those older posts in my blog, i felt as though i was super noob back then with crisis and all between each other hahaha.
im stucked. im confused. i dont even know my feelings anymore, how i felt and stuff. i dont know if i should wait or move on or wtv. whenever i tried my best to move and convinced myself that im over you, you would always be there. everywhere. like; you texted, you were infront of me, giving me that crooked smile that couldnt stop me from having high hopes for you. I could still remember the date 14th February 2010. That day when you asked me out and asked if you could be my boyfriend. it was really awkward for the first 'date' but i could remember when you were talking about some npcc stuffs, those brown eyes i couldnt forget th most. It seems hard for me whenever every valentines day came. i would always wished if those days could be rewinded, so we could start afresh. Those moments when we could talk the whole day like there's no tomorrow, texting day and night. But now all i could do is to pretend and put that smile on my face everyday. Im not obsessed, i just missed the way we were. Its good thing that at least we're friends now, we could contact if there's a need to (:
Getting over you is what i could do. well, i hope. And now, im not sure why i started accepting guys, contacting them to know them well (dont worry im not that obsessed, they're just friends), if its because im ready to move on. or. trying my best to forget about you.
But yeah. Now there's no option for me and im left here to watch both of you standing happy together. All the best (':
okay i might sound so dramatic and emtional haha wtv it is. at least i could let out my feelings for once. hahaha im done bitches (eventhough i know theres no one reading this lol).
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
5:27 PM
Bye Asferrism.
Saturday, October 16, 2010
8:01 PM
OI.
GAHHHHHHHHHHHHH. Im lazy tp update siolz-.- But whatta do, this one particular biatch forced me to, HAHAHAHA. Takmu terase eh yang laenlaen.
Sooo, exams were fine. Geography is th exception that im most particular about. Im gonna FAIL ): Well, first, because i didnt do ALOT of questions. Second, i have th feeling. Aww, you know.
SABRINARED, can i like, delete this blog? Its dead and i am too-_-' LAZY LAH. heeee ^^v But good thing i have a purpose for posting this now.
Hrm. You. You said things. Well, things which i think you dont even MEAN it. And now, its now obvious. You seriously dont even care. And now i dont, too. Yes, they are all fake, you are too. You dont appreciate a thing i sacrificed for you. All you think is about yourself, wether you can manage with us of using you? Hah. nice. Oh wait, i remember. You said, sweet vengeance right? Awww. You dont prove it, as i said, all your words were fake. Idontknow why you always keep saying things which ended up you didnt even mean it. What your purpose huh? Well, i admit thati did wrong for parts of our friendship. But im ot satisfies with th way you said we're using you. Face yourself, who's using who, now? See? You always wanted to face th good side of yours, and then said negative about us. Fine, i dont care about wtv shiat you said about us. Hey, no one is perfect, Stop being th only 'right' one, leaving us behind th bads. Yes, it's truly clear now. Your words do suck when your actions doesn't mean anything useful and that now, im losing your trust. For wtv it is, i'll try to forget this. Let bygones be bygones, i dont wanna repeat this again, for having enemies blablabla. Let's be th way we were, but not as clearly as before. thanks.
Thursday, September 16, 2010
7:38 PM
OI.
HAAAAAI ! :DDDDDDD Currently otp with Raudhah lovee :D Whoaaa, like its been a year sia w/o talking to her. With my bloody crazy somemore -.- i miss her mannz, Nur Raudhah Ayub ^^
Sooooooo, i had fun yesterday. Well only to th part when i went home with Sabred *love*>
Then i went to see th soccer girls played their match, well, was tryna to peace-out my mind. And know what? Its doesnt make any good, it was worst -.- I was SO FED UP that i got up and went to other places and went home with Sabrinalove, hehh. My bestest npcc mate 'though she quitted for her damn Art, tol tak Sab? -.-
Whoaa, now im listening to this Raudhah of mine, singing+memekak through th telephone singing songs. HAHAHA, cute of her. One day i want record ah, or should i, now? ><
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
<: 4:08 PM
HAHAHA!So there you have it, our Sec 1 faces!
Oh & by the way, this is Sabrina Red here posting.
I'm helping an ass to update her blog.
Tch.
Awin can be lazy when it comes to updating her own blog.
Oh & don't I look dumb in the picture above? <:
I miss NPCC a lot ):
I still can't help but laugh when I see this picture!
All of us are different now!
Our hairstyles, our faces etc...
But we're pretty much still the same inside! And we're still good friends (:
Those were the days.
I'm off to my anime!
(It's a short post but still! You better appreciate it Awin! :P )
ps / 3 more days! :D
